OGTT , Glucose tolerance test for pregnancy.

On wed, 15 Oct, 2014, OGTT was done. It is Glucose tolerance test to confirm gestational diabetes during pregnancy.

She took morning fasting blood sample and later after a morning meal following 3 hrs in each hour took a blood sample for test. It was 3 hrs test, how much meal to taken, it wasn't mentioned. She took a normal rice, lentils and vegetables. After the meal, I took her for more a less 30 minutes walk before she takes a first hour blood sample. After that, in between hours, she had been drinking warm waters. At almost 1:30 pm, the blood taking was finished.

The readings was in normal range. The lab staff asked us how much did she taken food during the meal. My thought is still in that.

When I reported to the doctor the next day in the hospital. She found ok, and for weight gain, she prescribed LRzin which is a 3 gm protein with Folic acid and zinc. She asked to continue all other inputs my wife has been taking.

26 weeks of pregnancy.

On Saturday, Glucose tolerance test GCT was done of 26 weeks pregnancy. It came out to be 140.
It should be less than 140. When it was shown to the doctor, She advised further testing to confirm whether it is gestational diabetes or not.

According to the doctor, if it comes out high even on the further test, then my wife needs to take medicine for gestational diabetes. But I am sure, on the upcoming test, it will be normal. I don't know why I am feeling that. Testing will be done on coming Wednesday. She needs to take a leave from her school I guess. One on fasting and then others after a meal of 1 hr, 2 hrs, and 3 hrs consequently, and have to report to the doctor.

On examination, Baby is moving normally. Weight seems not increased than before at 65kg. When she measured on the digital meter, it has shown little increase on points like 65.46 , when we have weighed some weeks ago.

Second dose of TT injection has been given today morning on the visit to the doctor. All other Tabs like Iron, calcium are continued.

It was a thrust of pain during TT injection for the first time to her. Need to see this time. Nurse told it will be some pain and will go away in 2 days, and nothing to worry about.

She thought it was stress that is creating downfall towards improvements like weight gain. Weight needs to be gained for healthiness of the baby.

Just a Thought intially - Beliefs, Attitudes, and Behaviours!!

Beliefs, Attitudes, and Behaviors:

When we think something, how it becomes a belief and for a long, when we hold it becomes a conviction.

It's amazing - truly unbelievable when we see things becoming itself into a known conviction. This doesn't seem happen overnight. For making a belief, one need to have many reasons to supports his idea or a thought. When you label your thought becomes an attitude. When the attitude if you hold it for long becomes a belief, and long lasting belief one day becomes a conviction that even you will not know when really it has become so.

We have many thoughts in mind; either consciously, or subconsciously where we have centers and sub-centers of impulses which begins, and triggers thoughts.

Why we keep thinking in our mind is just it proliferates itself from the centers,and sub-centers of impulses from our subconscious mind. One thought may trigger the other thoughts and so on. Linking of these thoughts seems simply a network of transmission of impulses. These thoughts from the centers, and sub-centers, comes to the conscious mind in the form of thoughts or attitudes which determine our behavior

Just a thought initially.

Environment in which we stay and expose ourselves and due to we,  in course of interaction with environment, we will have thoughts and experiences. Experiences comes from feeling it and remembering it from what we have done. A seed is initially a thought which makes it all in our life. Only determining factor is how will you nurture your thoughts and selects which thought to manifest. It's our choice

Past life impulses trigger centers; do we really have those as well? can be a big break through in this.  Do our thoughts determines our past behaviors? Yes of course! So, First question's answer also can be possibly  Yes!!

A thought wherever we have had generated once can have had an affect then and now. We can say it those thoughts now might be recessive or dominant depending on the choice  we have. But, the question is do we really have a choice? Is it possible?

Is it in our control?

A thought is a choice and is it in our control?

The weather falls sick!

Today the weather falls sick:

Is it the weather or the physiology of my body that I felt a surge of downfall on the activities? Does only I feel this today on sun less weather outside? since I am totally inside the room and the house.The outside environment affects our mood, is it just for me or you people too?

The temperature I saw on the news channel CNN of the kathmandu as 26 degree celsius. If there is sun in the sky, I won't feel little chilly today. I had to change my clothing to high neck vest and a trouser which I wear during winter but it feels me heavy on my body that I had to change the vest to the one I was wearing before.

Horoscope that made me not to do something:

The morning horoscope which I have seen after I woke up told something to be caution about. Not to deal, trade, or some contract to sign during the day. The phone rang while I was watching the television and laying down during the day at room. I didn't really agreed to the person who was asking for something to be done by me. That even really made me step back of my state of being activeness. If I would have able to do this, may this can lead to another opportunity, but it wasn't that for sure as far as that moment was concerned. I have been really following the action that has been telling by the horoscope which might be fruitful or slide back into numerous inactivities which I don't know yet. For now, I believe in Horoscope auspicious time prediction.

Thyroid dysfunction to be considered:

I won't say exactly the word dysfunction but the level of production of thyroid hormones fluctuation which affects the mood of the person. For example, not to do the required action. To say exactly not to be in the mood to do the things you have to do. May be you blame all this for the weather challenges or the state of your mind after you do what you didn't like to do and feel you should have done whatever the situation might be that it can be helpful for your loved ones. The mood swings or the state which you feel down as the weather is chilly.

Basically all the outside environment change has to be get accustomed with the inside body world, and in this role, your master gland, the pituitary which produces numerous hormones and stimulates to produce other glands the required level of hormones for instance, thyroid glands. This thyroxine hormones if in deficiency or extreme production affects the mood, reaction and blood pressure of the body. The serious depression is also the result of this facts which is true.

What basically you need to do?

First being aware of this fact is the first process of change since the change is only possible by your brain. I believe we can make up our brain in which the mind plays an important role for sure. After understanding that why your mood changes and what you can do for this. After information you know about the nature of your state, you can plant yourself a seed of change in your mind. Truly believe yourself that you can change your state of the mind and body. Remember to say Yes! to whatever opportunities came in that will change your position and the doings. It can be a simple phone call from your friend or loved one to move you out of your current state. Just do the first initial step with an enthusiasm,  Believe you can change, move forward!!!!

Friday Sept 12, 2014

The day of which the show must go on:

Normally, I don't get irritated myself because I'm not that category of  a person who gets angry unnaturally.  I don't pretend to be angry. I think the girls are more aware of being herself angry of or about anything or anyone with just pretension. I'm not that kind of guy.

I felt angry today. Why I would get angry? May be because I didn't get what I want. May be because I'm not able to be in my state of comfort, a state of my righteousness or may be I'm in a position where normally I don't go along with it so easily.

Blood pressure reading:

I have my blood pressure reading of normally 120/80. This is after I have been taking medication of hypertension which used to go around 140/100 and sometimes 150/100. Earlier state of mine made me one day in a state of dizziness so that I need to take medicine any how. This made me to go to the Doctor for consultation. This wasn't today the Friday Sept 12, 2014, but about some months ago. The state of mine now is even better than before medication. I must say that the medication has really changed my living to before and even more active than before.

What could be the process of relief once you got angry?

To my knowledge when a person gets angry, he doesn't see anything. He can't see the pros and cons. He can't decide what can be right to him/her at that moment because most of the time if he decides something in his state of anger, the decision seldom is right to him. He/she has to regret most of his/her decision made at the time of anger. So, to quiet himself/herself what he/she should do is a big question to everyone.

Take a glass of cool water if possible. A cool water may not be available at that time. What you should do? Keep mum for few minutes and observe your thoughts going and coming. This is only possible when you get angry and you become alone at that time. So, move out of the place is the necessity since the environment really makes a difference. You might be thinking of cause of anger or the person whom  you got angry with through mind repeatedly. So, you need to silence your mind by saying to yourself --- That's nothing. That's nothing, That's nothing. If this makes you silent your mind then it is your ego that has been hurting.

The possibility of getting angry again when you see the person or heard about the person whom you had become angry, So, don't get into the process of triggering again. Be silent or ignore it to let go of the encounter of the situation again. May be the other person whom you got angry has already forgotten about the incident in his mind. It is just your way of responding makes a difference in the situation. If a tigger comes again, then identify it quickly and do the appropriate to nullify it.

You have to make commitment that you will not get angry again in your life ever. "If it happens, I will see to make it over."

Friday : the show must go on

It's always the last day of a week. We usually burden off work after days of work of a week. I want to go out with friends to eat out or roam about which is quite unnatural after marriage. When we are planning to go out sometimes, the moment when the obstacle came in. This really makes me angry. But the show must go on. Yes, the show is going on and is still on.

Today it's Friday Sept 12, 6.04 pm 2014

Our Baby on 19th weeks past Ultrasound

Ultrasound:

Our Baby is now 19th weeks past and entering into days of becoming 20th weeks. We went through Ultrasound this morning. All fine. God bless us. Amen.

Baby's heart pumping normal. Sound can be heard clearly. Our baby is floating into adequate amniotic fluid inside his mother worm. I can see his strong legs build inside. His head, eyes lobes, a lobe of his nose, the ribs of his chest, and hands and strips of his fingers are clearly visible.

weight:

Weight of the baby now around 295 gms. Physically too, his mother weight increased around 3 kg since then. Doctor said it is ok. The weight shouldn't decreased now, and keep increasing. She have given some food supplements of protein as my wife doesn't like meats to eat.

An injection of Tinatinus:

It was given in the morning before we left the hospital. In the afternoon, my wife complained of  pain in the arm where it was given. The pain seems like becoming a kind of fever. I called the doctor and she said to put some ice on the pain area  and if fever comes, take a cetamol. She is still now in her school with children. May be we will see when she arrives home in the evening.

Foods: 

She likes to eat bananas. She thinks it was a boy because she had eaten 6 bananas at the same time ha ha. Really, it can be. ha ha.

Baby's due date: Jan 26th 2015.

Tej -el festival de las mujeres!!

"Tej" 

Que alivio! para todas mujeres  hindus porque hay llegado el dia religioso "Tej." Es el dia donde las mujeres quedan y bailan sin comer nada. Sin comer y beber es un ritual.

Hay las canciones de "Tej" muy typical en que les bailan y relajan todas sus sufrimentos del ano. Las mujeres van a los templos de dios "Shiva" y lo adoran por sus maridos como el. Para las mujures casadas, ellos oran por sus maridos larga vida, saluda y prosperidad. Encendieron " Diyos" ( las luces ) tambien. Ellos llevan sarees y kurtas rojas. Antes el dia, ellos coman las comidas deliciosas se llaman " darr " hasta al medianoche.

"Tej" es el dia muy especial para las mujeres manifestar sus deseos de hombres o maridos.

Bailando para relajan sus sufrimentos

orando por su marido

                  Feliz dia de "Tej" para todas mujeres de Hindus.

First impression is the last impression - Not always!

Impression you make at first  not always is the last impression.

Such a dynamic world of human mind! - how human thinks is merely the information access and information availability in this highway of dynamic world of human mind. I used to read and know about the fact that impression you make at first is the last impression it lasts, but This seems not true.

Mind is so active and keep checking every times when encounters! Mind checks for the impression stored in your memory with the present events, and really replace the past stored but keep trace of your past action of memory stored. How does the mind do this? May be some of you who knows how computer memory works might tally with this. Let me know by commenting below which is always welcome to do so.

Impression, how really works in human mind? A person who looks shy and introvert at day one, if changed himself showing up different in the next day then the one who supposed to judge a person for performance and behaviour could really appreciate this changing behaviour of that person? I'm sure he will get the two different information to decide of which is more predominant. That won't be again the last information he would take it for decision as he needs more information.

Do you think a Heart can think too?Does it really matter to the impression we get from the person we met?

I used to read at my school that Heart is composed of cardiac muscles which are involuntary muscles,and are being controlled by para sympathetic nervous system of human brain. And, now these days, I read and view more about Heart being possessed with memory cells and a Heart can really thinks too!!! And now we are in the age of shift from thinking by mind to thinking by heart - You believe or not!!! love at first sight! I think this is about thinking by his heart. Mind really can't make it happen which has brain with its two sides - duality being present.

Mind signifies duality - right or left, imagination or logic, yin or yang, while Heart being Oneness - Wholeness.

From duality to Oneness. God is one. We are all one. Global consciousness impact the world.

While Heart can think too which is how life going to be then impression one can make adds the different dimension to this process. Last impression could be how the heart will think it and decide.

Soul being a just another entity different from our Mind and Heart.  Do you believe of Soul mate found stories of love? and the experience of previous life remembered?

Whatsoever, Human soul have some contribution in making impression to other one who might have his previous life history of karmic account. For more about karma and journey of a soul read here SOUL

Body which is we got in this three dimensional world of nature, really makes impact on the process of impression who we feel that they make us. It can be another part of the story of natural selection,existence and continuity. 

Saturday ! A day for recreation!

Here I am on this Saturday to write again for recreation!

"Recreation" I suppose is a word that I am looking for in my Life. Whether I live in any circumstances, a final term to recreate my life again seems a necessity. A necessity? Yes! May be thinking for future with a wise look to fuel my life with a propeller. I don't have an idea to make this Saturday - A day for recreation, but merely writing my memoir again.

Looking at a distance, my vision wanders really into deep speculation of what might I have done although I didn't do it then, do I regret it now?  I asked one of my friend the same question of his life and he denied to regret never as the past has gone - he will try to revive in future. Future is never the present until we make dream right now. Make this possible in the present! What has restrained me to side back what I want to do?

Health!! Fear!!! and at one corner some financial issue also.  I wouldn't set back my wants to sabotage if I didn't have these issues at the time of leaping into new challenges.

I have to look deep into me my fears that I have hidden down within myself. Fear of stirring of family environment into chaos - breakage of relationships that are now in comfort zones. Life is beginning to change really. Codependency in relationship - how to make it right for both of involved ones into secure and progressive right beings? Dissatisfaction of loved ones, competition with the siblings, fear of getting into trauma. Well I might exaggerating now.

Fun in life -Now, is that what I am looking for or togetherness of friends in which I want to be a part of it.

At this point of my life, gathering is rare though occasionally with someone I have a regularity from the long period of time. Few but enlightening! Well, I might be searching for yet again deep insight into the togetherness of friends - I want to a part of a function where we together play our stage of life. That's where synergy in life to create momentum. No wonders at this point of my life to invite all to take parts -here again the fear that I may feel - please don't come alive! What's the secret? You may ask - but yes! it's health and relationship, and family ( mom, and wife, and new coming baby ). Why I am so fearful!! I have to change my afraidness into good energy of self sufficiency and self dependency. Co-creation of this thought might help. No wonders how I may manage my health.  Fun without Health - aaggghhhh!!

A regular exercise is what I have to put on stress myself applying it into my life at this point of my life. Healthy diets are also on priorities - I have to see what I might interest on eating healthwise.

Cutting out expenses on eating junk foods. Cleansing of my body toxins  by herbals if possible - plenty of drinking water. Less salts and sugars. Lemon water to put it on the list of regularity whenever possible. Healthy thoughts and mind, and soul..I am a peaceful soul.  --- Yes, Meditation.

What does experience teach us?

This is very good video posted by my friend from Germany.



Hope you guys liked it.



Please do comments on that. Thank you!

TRYING TO GET BACK ON TRACK OF MY LIFE.

Track of life:

Trying to get back on track of life -Yes, you would lost your track of life if you continue to loose your mind on surroundings of your daily activities. Well those daily activities I suppose you need them to survive and then your growth gets sabotaged. Well, you can also change the way you look to these situation as focusing on other things rather than you are continuing to do. It's closing one door and opening a new one. This new one could be your past thing that you have withhold for a long years. May be it is just you haven't got your focus in that you feel it is important.

Yes, it is the priorities that you are making and once you get into one of your priorities right now, make sure you get back to your previous one to continue doing what you want to achieve. Sometimes , it is where your mind is. Where your mind wanders when nothing you feel doing or you finishes your one task and now you have to get back to other which is equally important after urgency then.

In life, we have to do many things. How we take it as far as work is concerned. Life work - this is what I want to say.

Life work:

I have categorized this into subheading as Life work is something you should do that you are born to do. You may do something different that your life work and go on with life struggle which could also be your life work - may be not your primary life work. Why are you born in this world? Why you are here? What is your purpose of yours to be in this world?

There are certain things that you need to perform whether you like it or not but life work, we - everyone should identify and understand what we have to do in this life to perform in order to bring your soul into destiny.

Destiny: Destiny is where all soul have.  It is  influenced by the thoughts of your parents while you are infants and growing. Just a thought which have every ingredients to change and influence the destiny of a soul.

We all are governed with the soul work - is life work. A Soul may have many different lives which "Gita" explained.

How can we get back on track of life work after lost in the jungle of day to day activities which can be urgent to us now and will make us tired and unfruitful leading nowhere but even more circling of desires and wear and tear of our lives circumstances.

Some can get back on track and other will lost in the jungle: the others might not know what life work is his and born to do.

My life on thirties which seems to the end after one year or so. Some life achievements, and the others to do lists - desires and emotional set backs, feel of a war with your relatives and brothers - a sense of rights to be achieved for your child and wife - a pure responsibility, a surge of flow of desires and intentions to strengthen the edge of it and stand tall in the crowd of chaos where others intention trying to mark its way.

A row of my track of my life where your all intentions and achievements lie - I need to focus on that bringing it to the core of the activities which can nourish it and expand as I focus it through.

Shri guru deva dutta

My Life ahead 30s'

 My Life ahead thirties. We get involved with activities where we think we can take a further step of growth. Growth is necessary in every endeavour we participate, where it's personal or professional arenas.

Many have more plans and strategies to fulfill their lives prosperous and happy. Here when happiness comes into context. It is again just a perspective. I'm sure you will agree with me that the wants and desires, intentions and propositions can be different to different people. Even if they concur to each other, the consequences may be so unique and different. My life ahead thirties which will be consequences of my thirties itself. One thing is certain that if I do the same things all the time, I will be getting the same thing in the future. To change it, of course, I need to be in an uncomfortable situation. That may lead to a comfortable state again like flow of water from High end to low end.

Though, I didn't have much desires in my life because when I had taken a course of desire to fulfill my life prosperous, but I failed and I collapsed ! Not sure why did that happened to me but I am sure that failure opened up new doors!! In my life, I have experienced this often. But, at some point, you can't flow with winds always, sometimes you need to sail through winds by creating a resistance. But make sure you don't get burn down ( your health ).

Freeing your mind is very important in your life course. Skills to puff up the stress and tension, hanging out with the like minded people and having intentions following up with activities to get the desired state of lives, you need to have knowledge and wisdom to feed you as a source of back up support. Make sure, you have right people at the right time. You can take use of internet as a source of gathering and searching information. Whoever you are and whatever you do now is done by someone else in other place of the world you live in. We are linked up with each other through out the world and this is surprising!!

With this amazing findings on linking together THE WORLD,  the level of consciousness of the World depends on the incidence that followed in the world. The more liked minded prayer in the church for instance, pray massive by the mass of people with an intention is entitled to happen in the world of happenings.

A pray is very powerful if it has done with focused intention and how bad you want, The manifestation, it depends! This is how the manifestation has been done by the prayer in the churches and people who do it at home in their personal lives. They have really changed the way they live and lead the lives.

In My life ahead thirties, I want to see the manifestation that I desire. I have now sprouting desires which are generating again after a long gap ( 5 years ).  I'm now a Man with a purpose!! I am now making it  focused and sowing a seed into the Universe. It itself grows.


Shri guru deva datta!

Childhood memory

I am back again with a story behind a person who is my friend while studying my Masters'. Her name is Rashmi Niraula, Though  I changed my University later, we have met in times again for common interest and activities, for instance, Writings. She is good natured girl, and she described her one of her memorable childhood experience. When I read it, I enthralled and dived into imagination into characters of her real story. Here you can also read it which she wrote in her own words.

Rashmi Niraula

As my childhood days are spend on the place far from my hometown name Duhabi. That place was very beautiful surrounded by beautiful hills and mountains and greenery spread all over the areas. That place name is okharvotte (madi).I have got a chance to visit that place while I was small ,at that time my age is Twelve. I have beautiful memory on my childhood. As my father was the government employee and everyone respect him. I have many friends of my age; we used to have lots of fun and enjoyment. We used to roam from one place to other and many new places.Our parents don’t allow us to roam in new places, here and there. We just secretly get out of our home without our parents’ permission due to that we used to get punishment.  Once in the month there used to have party in my father office, where my father friend’s used to bring their children with them. We used to have lots of fun, we used to sing song together and dance a whole night. One of my friend know to play Madal, he played it and we all used to sing song together which I can never forget those days.  In my father office there was one peon we used to call him "Baje." He is very interesting and a kind person he used to play with me and my sister whenever he got time. He loved us very much, whenever we feel bored he used to come and dance just to make us laugh and happy. We used to play lots of game like carem board, ludo, chess, Lukachupi ( hide and seek ), Dhukumuku, skipping and rubberband etc. Every week in our village there use to have market  only that day we have to buy the grocery for the whole week.

At that day we used to go market with others friends we used to bought lots of sweets, chakshala (special sweets made of sugar), chocolates etc. I used to study there at Madi School which was only school of that place .and there, the government employees, businessmen and rich people afford to send their children in that school. In my school there I got chance to make many good friends we all were very naughty and used to tease each other. We used to sing together  in class whenever the class has leisure times. Once, while we were singing song we were also dancing by pushing each other at that time one of my friend fell from his a bench and the teacher scolded us a lot.

There was a sister, the daughter of baje, she was also my guardian. She loved me a lot. Her name was bhagwata .Bhagwata dd loved me very much and she guided me whenever I needed help. She used to take me "bassi" the place where there was a farm in which the farmer used to grow sweet potato, maize, wheat, potato etc. and we used to eat sweet potatos and roam different places. Once our teacher decided to take us on a picnic but my parents didn't allowed me to go to picnic as I was very small. I cried a lot that day Bhagwata dd knew that and finally convinced my parents to allow me to go to the picnic as she was also going along with us. The picnic spot was near the place named shallghari where there is a large forest and a beautiful river flowing in between the forest. Teacher had to cook food and we needed to help them by cutting vegetables and others ,while cutting the vegetables, the seed of chilly went into my eyes that was the most horrible day for me.

Once my parents decided to visit to Siddakali temple in Chyanpur, we went there to worship the god and had a small picnic. While returning back in the way it got dark and soon it was becoming night .The villager suggested my parents to make massal of fire and carry it with them. We were very scared as there were many thieves and robbers in that area. That day we reached home lately.

Once or twice in the year we used to visit to Terai our hometown, while going to Terai we need to walk one whole day, and one whole day on a bus. While we reached to our home we used to have lots of fun and when the time came to leave home we used to cry a lot. As we had lots of friends there and we used to play a lot. In our home my old grandmother, uncle, aunty, and my sister lives there. While leaving the home I felt very bad.While going to school there was a large forest, we used to cross that forest to go to school. On the way there was a hospital from where the scream of patients came. We used to run while going to school. There was always a competition between my sister and me to go to school as the way was very scary.

Once our teacher decided to take us to the campus near our school to take part on the program organized by the campus .That was very beautiful program, singing and dancing program were conducted there. That whole day we spend in that campus.One of my friend had got tuberculosis; his parent were poor they don’t have enough money for the checkup and also there were no awareness about the disease. He was sick but also he didn’t stop to go to school as he loved to read. One day while going to school on the way he died. Whole school went there in his funeral which was very sad memory of my life.


My childhood memory was very happy, some were very sad but in total this was the awesome moment of my life. If I got chance in my life I would like to visit the place once and want to make my memory refresh again. I want to meet my friends those who were still there. That is all, the thing about my childhood memory.

As my childhood days are spend on the place far from my hometown name Duhabi. That place was very beautiful surrounded by beautiful hills and mountains and greenery spread all over the areas. That place name is okharvotte (madi).I have got a chance to visit that place while I was small ,at that time my age is Twelve. I have beautiful memory on my childhood. As my father was the government employee and everyone respect him. I have many friends of my age; we used to have lots of fun and enjoyment. We used to roam from one place to other and many new places.Our parents don’t allow us to roam in new places, here and there. We just secretly get out of our home without our parents’ permission due to that we used to get punishment.

 Once in the month there used to have party in my father office, where my father friend’s used to bring their children with them. We used to have lots of fun, we used to sing song together and dance a whole night. One of my friend know to play Madal, he played it and we all used to sing song together which I can never forget those days.

 In my father office there was one peon we used to call him "Baje." He is very interesting and a kind person he used to play with me and my sister whenever he got time. He loved us very much, whenever we feel bored he used to come and dance just to make us laugh and happy. We used to play lots of game like carem board, ludo, chess, Lukachupi ( hide and seek ), Dhukumuku, skipping and rubberband etc. Every week in our village there use to have market  only that day we have to buy the grocery for the whole week.

Irritation

How a normal being gets irritated with their life and day to day dealings once the person have to deal with day with no smiles.  Here is an email I got from one of my friend's memoir is just that irritation how he felt and beautifully described.

One of the most disturbing and mind reckoning audio clip or music we call it, is the alarm tone and mine one strikes at 5 o clock every morning since past 8 days, even in Saturdays and Sunday. So I wake up all sleepy and tired my joints hurting because of the last days cycling and again I have to go to work. I try switching on the lights of the bathroom but again I find no switch, damned switched is broken and I have to connect the wires to switch it on. Oh yes, this is Nepal sweetheart no lights, load shedding in the morning is a normal case. I struggle to find my toothbrush and I start brushing my teeth, I open the tap and yes of course the water runs dry, and I m left with a mouth full of toothpaste foam. This is very normal in my house as water is a problem everywhere in Kathmandu. I rush to another bathroom wash my face and since I have no time to bath because I have to be in the hotel at sharp 6 or my boss will make my day very hard. I start to shave and we all have pimples and when we cut one pimple it starts to bleed like a river, and we all can imagine the amount of pain we get when we put on that aftershave, oh god!! I don’t want to remember that. That is the part I hate whenever I shave. Now the hairs, it doesn’t get in the way we want, does it now? So I put on my uniform, now time for breakfast. my mom gets up early to make me breakfast and today she made bhuteko maam and I have to eat that with neuro ko saag, I know its her care for me but seriously bhuteko maaam in this early morning, I eat up half of the plate and I pedal all way long to my workplace.

So its early morning and I reach my workplace. I get ready quickly and rush to the attendance machine to find a very long queue of people waiting for their turn to do their attendance since its time for morning duty to start and night duty to get over. It has just been 8 days of work in here and I haven’t got any day off.  I enter inside report to my senior and start doing my normal job that is of a trainee in a 4 star hotel and the jobs I do are the odds one out, like counting the spoiled napkins and get it replaced, refuel the burners, serve tea and pickups from the rooms, this day started with the napkins counting and getting it replaced, I carried all the 68 cloth napkins and few dusters and went to the laundry. The supervisor in the laundry is a good guy with a smiling face but again I had to wait for about 15 minutes with the load of those cloth napkins and dusters as he was busy with other staffs that were in the laundry to get their uniform cleaned.  So finally my turn came to exchange the laundry and then the supervisor started counting the napkins and stopped at 60. He said they only have the stock of 60 napkins. Then I returned with the incomplete set of napkins. I got back to my department to find the boss, owner of the hotel shouting in my department, at the top of his voice, scolding a senior captain of the restaurant for not filling the leave form correctly. I seriously needed a leave because I hadn’t slept properly in few days and I was starting to feel weak. I couldn’t ask him to give me a leave for the next day. 

Then I quietly went to fill up the fuel in the box, and when I reached there, I reached for the rubber gloves and as I was wearing the rubber gloves, that stupid thing tore off, I was wearing it so lightly but that thing tore off and I had to refill the fuel with bare hands. as the fuel has acid in it we are told to use gloves but since my dear glove friend tore off when I needed him, I couldn’t say anything to it nor do anything and as those were a new pair of gloves, I couldn’t ask for a new one. I finished up filling up the fuel for the buffet and then I got time to go and eat the breakfast. I rushed to the staff canteen and I found out that I was late and the breakfast just got over. I got a cup of tea that’s all and I was starving as I didn’t eat much. Then with my hungry stomach I came back to my department. Then it was my turn to pour tea and coffee to the entire guest. I was so hungry and the entire guest were eating a lavish breakfast and I had to watch them eat and give them tea and coffee. I was getting restless with hunger and I told the manager that I am very hungry. He ordered me some tea and biscuits and told me to eat those and work in the back area. I went to the back area with the few biscuits and tea to find my friend who studies with me in Bangalore. He is a bit lazy, bit greedy type of guy. He eats those few biscuits that were for me and drank half of the tea. I couldn't and didn’t say anything to him. Then I started wiping plate and glasses which we needed in for breakfast. I wiped the glasses and placed them in the hall and then I had to fold the napkins and make a bishops hat, 60 napkins and 60 bishops hats were made in a short time but then again 8 napkins were missing and I had to cover for that too, my seniors started shouting at me for the missing napkins and I had to explain them the whole story at the laundry. 

Finally I went for lunch and had some plenty of food. The food sucks but I ate it anyways. then I came back to the department it was 12 by that time and my duty is till 2 o clock, there was no work to do just some pickups and some welcome drinks to be served, the most boring part is when we get nothing to do, not even wiping. Then slowly as I watched the wall clock strike till 2, I stared at the every second the second hand ticked. Finally when it was 2 I ran out to the dressing room and I started to pedal. I was so happy that my duty is over so I was pedaling in super speed and I was overtaking any slow vehicles and in a particular turning I came across a ford figo, it was going slow so I over took it and went  ahead, and the driver got pissed off that a cycle passed by him, he accelerated to his full and came close me and bonked his horn and showed me a middle finger, I was so pissed off with the driver that I pedaled to my fullest and gave him a good chase, thanks to the traffic in Nepal, I caught him in the red light and passed him and showed him who is the boss as cycles don’t have any rules in Nepal and don’t have to stop at red lights. I reached home and was trying to sleep but then a bulldozer came beside my house to fill the landsite and after an hour of its noise I caught my sleep and suddenly I felt something was moving, that was the bulldozer caught the telephone wire of my house, it had only been a day since my telephone was repaired and again this happened, irritated by the people around me I m writing this of how irritating a day can be yet we still survive and live ahead and hope that we don’t have to live the same day tomorrow

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Not the last day of thirties, it seems just fabulous, never before!

Thirties!! yes 30s', 3 decades of my life which I am living through it, which is never before it ever exists in my life and not sure if it continues to be in the day that comes, because I know very well, time that has lived will never back again.

Even though, I don't believe that the beautiful time, I am living with my wife, and parents, ever change through time and will have different scenario and if it will be, then perhaps yet another beautiful time I hope.

Sense of freedom is the key in this period of life. Sense of awareness, control and flexibility of ability to choose the karma with aware of self beings. Most of time, in my case, I have been watching and analyzing through the incidents of life with involvement and sometimes I don't choose to involve in it.

Emotional, financial, interpersonal and social life has been immensely improved in respect to life at 20s'. One great choice I have been making of my life is not to travel at more distant places which makes me not so credible, though it is a preparation, of course for the next coming decades of my life, i.e. 40s'.

Happy Anniversary 2014

Today, the same day, my wife was entered in my home with a wedding ritual being done at Temple. Alas! a year has passed.

It can be a coincidence or shift of my mind, I shifted to search a new standing, and a new scenario myself unknowingly created. I took a  course of non fiction creative writing  from Colby college in Maine, United states and the professor is Dr. Tilar J Mazzeo.

I was focusing myself at the course , did homework of the first lesson in which I am always enthusiastic for the first time anytime, and every times. Its a video series and you can also do from your home at your own pace.

With this focus on a different aspect of my life rather than my Anniversary, my wife felt neglected, and said, "oh you didn't care at all, "  which is very sad and depressing at the moment. She went to school as usual. I think I should have a plan while she will be returning in the evening. It's now 9:20 am.

Miracle! Manifestation! Light!

Light, we bring Miracles! Manifestation are just with the effect and its medium in respect to light.
So, what is light? series or pack of photons. Photons when it strikes within a medium or a field. It changes with the network of fields and energy potential manifested into matter which is nothing but the frequencies change which is in the form of manifestation ( matter ).

Source of light is the SUN, and other cosmic rays that affects the manifestation when there is no Sun. Mind has thoughts and thoughts have certain frequencies. Intensity of focus changes the physical matters, which means it manifests your thoughts by intense focus, and it is a miracle!

Mind minds with matters. Mind, with emotions, thoughts of different frequencies changes the structure of the manifestation.

 THIS IS THE SECRET TRUTH.

Two weeks past.

Yes!! Two weeks past and we are back to ultrasound, and in the morning, we went to the hospital. My wife delighted when she came to know that the baby is beating its heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Heart rate detected was 186, which is quite normal as the doctor said. We Agot the report and very happy and delighted. We are still curious, is it a boy or a girl. Shri guru deva dutta...........................................

We are yet to see the comment of the Dr. Urmila Karki, the gynecologist.

It's my baby. About my baby, many relatives predicted it as a girl because the baby has come in the time when grandmother expired. It 's  question of belief, whether it takes into shape according to the relatives beliefs or my belief what it will be.  The manifestations can be made what we want.

7 weeks and 1 day, moment of initiation of birth of the soul inside my wife womb. Time to recollect information and knowledge about my baby. Shri guru deva dutta.......................................

Grandmother died on Friday.

Our grandmother died on Friday, May 30 at the hospital and later then burned into ashes at Arya Ghatt where dead bodies are cremated.

We finished the ritual of death at around 5 pm which finishes by going into home and eat out.

I reached my room at around 7 pm and bathe again.

Shri guru Deva dutta.

My grandmother inside ICU with ventilator at hospital

Do you believe in rebirth?

What is going to be with us? This week is really crucial. At one point my wife is pregnant and baby's life going to arrive in this week, and on the other side, grandmother is at critical condition at ICU ventilator.

This coincidence is natural.

What is going to happen? rebirth of grandmother? possible inside my wife as our baby?

What are our karmic accounts and what the grandmother wishes as her last breath. It is very crucial. Do you believe on these aspects of life of born and reborn?

Shri Guru Deva Dutta.