Blogging again after a while of days of my life.

It is important to continue back to blogging again. I feel It's important again to feed my soul and I have to ask myself, Is there something I can write about at this time? Just let me see if I can deliver some of my thoughts clearly and concisely to you all.

Yes, I am back and I hope I can continue writing this blog with lots of my experiences and thoughts which I have been holding inside my mind.  Life will be here on earth whether we will be here or not. It will continue as long as the soul desires. The important thing is when the soul wants to appear in a scenario to play his role and continue his journey. 

As the journey begins, we, the soul, continue to act or react, and our purpose are to be in this world is Nirvana, perhaps. Nevertheless, we all exist for desires to happen or if don't have desires, merely flow along the winds of life finding a mirage. I don't want to fix our lives on these two extremities because there could be many possibilities in our lives, which we all came to know by looking someone else experiences.

We all compel to think about our lives how it is to be as it is once we don't have means to fulfill our daily requirements. What if our world to be live is so easy. then it won't be the world of chaos or the world of dreams of someone's willingness to continue on the journey. What so ever, life is there and here that we should feed our lives and to our belongings. Responsibility emerging from pitfalls, situations and occasions whatsoever it's life - our life to live with dignity and confidence.

We, sure have to let go off our downfalls and purge those moments of pain to elevate ourselves into new beginning and finish off with concrete achievements that will make mile-stones

for our lives.

There comes the winds of change. A change rather not to engulf but to sustain and to upgrade to the next stage of our lives. We continue to live and live, Of course let live.

A day Begins with a crying of a Baby..

Nowadays, my days begin with a crying of a baby and ends my day with end of  the crying of the baby.

No matter what the other says - This is now a routine of my life. I have been observing the baby's life of my baby who just sleeps, eats and cries. I have learned how to cuddle and change the nappy. This is not the end I guess - but a new beginning towards a insight into the process of growing my baby.

We all once be Babies. Yes true. Babies are so cute. They only have a choice of demand by crying. So, learning a language of new born babies - oh gosh! but soon I will learn it some way.

•  Hunger:  Baby cries due to hunger.Whenever he is hungry. He has no choice but to cry. 
• Temperature: When baby feels cold, he cries. So, optimum temperature is required in the baby's room.
• Burping: When baby feels a burp is coming. He cries.
• Excretion: Baby cries when his nappy got loo and poop and wet his nappy.
• orientation while sleeping: Baby cries when he feels discomfort in orientation in sleeping and staying.

Learning a language of a baby is easy? May be - because he just have one way of communication in his initial days - is just to cry.

 

The sound of a cry. The tone of his crying sound may determine what he is up to. How the baby cryings help him to fulfill his demand is the next question. For now, this is true baby cries for a demand  and when it is fulfilled. He just smiles... and the Smile is so cute. and satisfied.

A little boy born!!!

The little boy born on 16th Jan, 2015 in the mid afternoon by Cesarean dissection. It was Doctor's decision to operate as soon as we visit the hospital as mother felt inactivity of the fetus. When we reached the hospital, we have to wait for some 30mins and then at the moment she was examined, doctor checked by doppler and the scan indicating fetal distress. Doctor decided to operate quickly.

A little boy was born crying loud. He looks similar like his father as the nurses said. He has long hairs and his nose similar to his mother. Apagar test of the baby was 7 after 1 min  and 8 at 5 mins. It seems normal the condition of the baby at birth.

Mother conditions afteroperation improved when shifted to Cabin ward C- 5.  His grand father made all arrangements for his grand son and the daughter-in-law.

His father stayed with his mom doing day to day activities, managing foods, medicines and all the support. He was just active for all day without rest for his wife and his son.

Now he has been first 5 days running. He sleeps a lot and drink milk. He has already a taste of his mother milk through spoon. Breast pump has provided us much help to feed him. He can see I think. When I wore a hoot and approach him, he moves his head wherever the hoot with my head goes. lol. He has been doing normal excretion, though he sleeps a lot even while feeding milk.

He has just drunk milk and oil massaged and now sleeping inside a net under the sun. His mother too got oil massaged, ate a meal and now taking sun bath with mother-in- law. Now it is 12:15 pm. I got a baby call - have to go to upstair!!!

Updates will be back soon.

Due date approaching near!!

Due date approaching near!

Now, it's 4 days remaining for the due date. The doctor advised to come to the hospital for stay on the same day or after one day if the labour pain doesn't occur. The hospital stay is advised for the observation.

We will soon meet the new little boy. 

36 WEEKS OF PREGNANCY

LMP: 10 April 2014  ( 36 weeks of Pregnancy )

Calculation of Due date: LMP minus 3 months =Jan 10

Date will be the next year of Jan 10 i.e Jan 10, 2015

ADD 7 days = Jan 17, 2015 ( DUE DATE )

Weight of the baby is 2399gm.
Ultra sound detected as 34 weeks pregnancy today.
Margin of days : +/-21 days

Due date calculated : 7 Feb 2015

Heart rate: 146 beats/min

Placenta: Posterior Fundic

Liquid volume: 10 cm Adequate.

Intra-uterine single live fetus in Cephalic presentation.

On the above data, here is a presentation of Two Due dates given. One predicted by N. rule and other from the Ultrasound fetus measurements. According to the doctor, she will take LMP as a preference if it is available. The others are taken into account once LMP not known.

It's a baby boy of few weeks remaining to be born. Whatever the due date estimated, the exact date will be he who choose . 

At this time, he is sensitive to light and sound already. 

B.P of mother recorded as 130/90 and The doctor told it is a bit higher for pregnant mother. How can she control her B.P?

Please do advice.

THE DAY I WAS BORN AGAIN

Something happened in the year 1999, the day when I almost died. Lying in the bed just curiously exploring what had been occurring to me without knowing day or the night outside.  I was travelling to where my consciousness brought me. I could hear a crying of people somewhere far. It seemed like a huge tragedy had occurred there. The sound of crying of whole mass - it fell into shadow until a powerful woman's voice rise into the dark sky ordering the slaughter of someone's head - horrible!! That woman voice was powerful enough and then was focusing me staying above where I lie. She was saying - "THAT"S YOU" THAT"S YOU"......HERE YOU COME....COME...I was feeling like my head was pulling up and staggering .............I was summoning my all powers which I was chanting early in the curiosity. 

During chanting early, I was approached by some SOME Powerful chanting Mantra of known nature. I was listening to it and had no effect on me. I felt being attacked but had no effect. I laughed hugely and echoed in the dark space. Ripples of my laugh continued as it seemed not stopping. 

The next scene of my consciousness was that the crying of mass of people and I summoned all my powers to the raised powerful woman voice as she staggering my head --Yea Here you come.....

Then, I was changing my position of my body with different posture of dance of Tandaba with different posture of my body and hands. Until some rays of smoothing energy befell and entering through my head and passing it through my body and out through my lower organ.

I saw a white bread old man with a dazzling white light followed by a white woman seemed like an angel..........Then I tried to kiss the Angel............Feeling it's mine...

When I interpret now All those lights and encounters, I feel Iike I had been to some other dimension which I couldn't hear now. There are some other worlds too which we couldn't see and hear normally. I have felt it. It is like yesterday and Time has passed so long though my memories still alive and fresh. I may relive the memory but not that way as I had gone through. It was not a dream - but a true Reality.

My first cooking in a microven@#$%&

Initializing microven to cook

My first tryout to cook in a microven was hilariously cooked with a brust of one of the egg inside the oven. Good gracious!!! The other one simply intact just to eat out by my mom lol.  I wish I could cook less for just 5 seconds.

It was a few days ago during the SARRC summit at Kathmandu. It was also the day of Bivaha Panchami 2071. That day was made something special for my wife to feed her" egg and Baras." At the end of day, during the night, we had to warm up the Baras which were already cooked. Then, our mind striked of using Microwave oven, which was left unused for many years placed just next to the television in the dinning room.

My father first heated the "Baras" inside the microwave oven and we ate with Curds and Chiuras. That was our dinner that night.

We left it untouched a couple of days again just inside the kitchen. Then, I tried out the hilarious cook of four breads to make them Quick Defrost!!! Once I took out from the oven. They were hard like nuts lol and burnt. NOT too bad. I ate them with milk tea with my mom. My mom too tried out eating them without complaining any!!! Then, I micrwaved Two eggs to try out to cook. I scheduled for 2 mins. It was just one minute past and I was thinking to shut down as for me I was taking me too much time inside vulnerable!! And the egg brust!! Buuummm!!! Thank God, the oven is safe!!!

I carefully cleaned all. We had snacked for the afternoon already. After a day, this afternoon, I wanted to try out yet another courageous act!! French fries!!!

I took out 2 big potatoes and piled them off and washed with water and chopped into fined pieces. I was cautious this time. I put inside chopped pieces of one potato, and turned on and set the schedule. It was 28 minutes as determined by the oven itself.  As I was cautious, five minutes past; I closed the heating button and opened the oven checked how far it has been cooking - it was just started evaporating!! I closed again and started the heating. It was nicely cooking still not past 28 mins.

My mom asked when it would be cooked. Then I replied," Timer is on and still counting." Then, she wisely suggested saying, " There will be ringing bell when it cooked." Hummmm, Still I didn't keep my attention keen on that.

Suddenly before the time set, the ringing bell heard. I checked quickly for the time; still 5 mins left.  So, I allowed it cook for 5 more minutes even after the ringing bell.......... o gosh!! when I opened it afterwards, my potato chips..French fries!!!  were all hardened like small wood sticks!!!

Then, I realized it was the ringing bell I have to make an atttention!! My mom already warned me which I didn't take the attention!!! She didn't complain but instead was enjoying trying out new forms of potato chips this afternoon lol.

We finished tryout those with sweet and sour tomato sauces. Later, my mind was planning to roast meat inside the microven next time. Will be Delicious!! Roasted meat, chicken, buff, ostrich whatever!!!!

Thank you for reading!!!

Espanol y Que me pongolo!!!

Hace tres anos antes, yo fui a Universidad de Tribhuvan para estudiar la lengua extranjera. Cuando yo habia venido a campus, yo matriculio en espanol de primer semestre. Antes venir ahii, yo hubia estudiado a Alta vista, escuela de espanol privata. Yo creo decir que en primer semestre, yo sentio poco facil para aprender. Por lo tanto, yo no se que dificultadad de mi espanol  lo que mejorar.

Por supuesto, tenia cuatro manera de examen; gramatica, composicion, dictacion y abre la boca,  Yo hubia sentido que " abre la boca" habia muy facil.Tenemos que abre la boca en cualquer cosas. No tenia ninguna problema. Yo hubia focado en gramatica. Despues en composicion en que tenia que escribir y comprender las oraciones en correcta. Ademas, tenia siempre una pregunta de mio para mi que por que yo estudio el espanol. Ahora tambien, aveces pongo la pregunta, Por que?

Ahora, estoy en Quinto semetre.Tengo el profesor extranjero.

El es Maneul Blanco desde la Orencia, una cuidad de espana. Este senor es muy simpatico y patiente para nosotros los que queria aprendimos espanol como el. Es el un magnifico profesor de espanol. El sabe que un dificultad de un estudiante. El siempre cuida para hacerlo mejorar. Tengo muchas dificultads de vocalizar bien en espanol. Quizas, yo he olvido todo durante un ano falta. ( Por favor, yo he omitado todos anne, tilde, en este pagina porque no tengo estos en mi teclado).

Voy a coger mi examen de qunito semestre despues dos o tres semanas. Yo lo digo que es importante para mi. No se en que cosas voy a utilizarlo. Una manera es para escribir en mi blog. Quiero un teclado bueno.

Marchando a mi vida curcial

Hoy es el dia de jueves. No me importa que ha dicho o que ha piensado sobre mi y mi vida. Yo estoy marchando a mi distincta calle para subir mi monton de mi situacion. Me parece que es importante para mi vida.

Me gusta que juegen todos las dias. Juegan con las personas que me encuentren. Si, marchando uno por uno.  Es valiente y lo mejor es que yo estoy piensando sobre situaciones que me pasando ahora.

Cuando yo encuentre mi profesor de espanol, Maneul Blanco, yo juro que no me hago muchas errores mientras hablanado en espanol. El tiene muchos pasiones para ensenar a estudiantes quien pueden hablar espanol con dificultadad. El tiene muchas compasion por los estudiantes quien intenter mas para aprender el espanol en su aula.

A proposito, tengo que marchar duro y duro por mi calle. Es cierto que voy a mi lugar donde yo queria mucho para experiencia de mi vida.

Viva mi Profesor!! Gracias.

OGTT , Glucose tolerance test for pregnancy.

On wed, 15 Oct, 2014, OGTT was done. It is Glucose tolerance test to confirm gestational diabetes during pregnancy.

She took morning fasting blood sample and later after a morning meal following 3 hrs in each hour took a blood sample for test. It was 3 hrs test, how much meal to taken, it wasn't mentioned. She took a normal rice, lentils and vegetables. After the meal, I took her for more a less 30 minutes walk before she takes a first hour blood sample. After that, in between hours, she had been drinking warm waters. At almost 1:30 pm, the blood taking was finished.

The readings was in normal range. The lab staff asked us how much did she taken food during the meal. My thought is still in that.

When I reported to the doctor the next day in the hospital. She found ok, and for weight gain, she prescribed LRzin which is a 3 gm protein with Folic acid and zinc. She asked to continue all other inputs my wife has been taking.

26 weeks of pregnancy.

On Saturday, Glucose tolerance test GCT was done of 26 weeks pregnancy. It came out to be 140.
It should be less than 140. When it was shown to the doctor, She advised further testing to confirm whether it is gestational diabetes or not.

According to the doctor, if it comes out high even on the further test, then my wife needs to take medicine for gestational diabetes. But I am sure, on the upcoming test, it will be normal. I don't know why I am feeling that. Testing will be done on coming Wednesday. She needs to take a leave from her school I guess. One on fasting and then others after a meal of 1 hr, 2 hrs, and 3 hrs consequently, and have to report to the doctor.

On examination, Baby is moving normally. Weight seems not increased than before at 65kg. When she measured on the digital meter, it has shown little increase on points like 65.46 , when we have weighed some weeks ago.

Second dose of TT injection has been given today morning on the visit to the doctor. All other Tabs like Iron, calcium are continued.

It was a thrust of pain during TT injection for the first time to her. Need to see this time. Nurse told it will be some pain and will go away in 2 days, and nothing to worry about.

She thought it was stress that is creating downfall towards improvements like weight gain. Weight needs to be gained for healthiness of the baby.

Just a Thought intially - Beliefs, Attitudes, and Behaviours!!

Beliefs, Attitudes, and Behaviors:

When we think something, how it becomes a belief and for a long, when we hold it becomes a conviction.

It's amazing - truly unbelievable when we see things becoming itself into a known conviction. This doesn't seem happen overnight. For making a belief, one need to have many reasons to supports his idea or a thought. When you label your thought becomes an attitude. When the attitude if you hold it for long becomes a belief, and long lasting belief one day becomes a conviction that even you will not know when really it has become so.

We have many thoughts in mind; either consciously, or subconsciously where we have centers and sub-centers of impulses which begins, and triggers thoughts.

Why we keep thinking in our mind is just it proliferates itself from the centers,and sub-centers of impulses from our subconscious mind. One thought may trigger the other thoughts and so on. Linking of these thoughts seems simply a network of transmission of impulses. These thoughts from the centers, and sub-centers, comes to the conscious mind in the form of thoughts or attitudes which determine our behavior

Just a thought initially.

Environment in which we stay and expose ourselves and due to we,  in course of interaction with environment, we will have thoughts and experiences. Experiences comes from feeling it and remembering it from what we have done. A seed is initially a thought which makes it all in our life. Only determining factor is how will you nurture your thoughts and selects which thought to manifest. It's our choice

Past life impulses trigger centers; do we really have those as well? can be a big break through in this.  Do our thoughts determines our past behaviors? Yes of course! So, First question's answer also can be possibly  Yes!!

A thought wherever we have had generated once can have had an affect then and now. We can say it those thoughts now might be recessive or dominant depending on the choice  we have. But, the question is do we really have a choice? Is it possible?

Is it in our control?

A thought is a choice and is it in our control?

The weather falls sick!

Today the weather falls sick:

Is it the weather or the physiology of my body that I felt a surge of downfall on the activities? Does only I feel this today on sun less weather outside? since I am totally inside the room and the house.The outside environment affects our mood, is it just for me or you people too?

The temperature I saw on the news channel CNN of the kathmandu as 26 degree celsius. If there is sun in the sky, I won't feel little chilly today. I had to change my clothing to high neck vest and a trouser which I wear during winter but it feels me heavy on my body that I had to change the vest to the one I was wearing before.

Horoscope that made me not to do something:

The morning horoscope which I have seen after I woke up told something to be caution about. Not to deal, trade, or some contract to sign during the day. The phone rang while I was watching the television and laying down during the day at room. I didn't really agreed to the person who was asking for something to be done by me. That even really made me step back of my state of being activeness. If I would have able to do this, may this can lead to another opportunity, but it wasn't that for sure as far as that moment was concerned. I have been really following the action that has been telling by the horoscope which might be fruitful or slide back into numerous inactivities which I don't know yet. For now, I believe in Horoscope auspicious time prediction.

Thyroid dysfunction to be considered:

I won't say exactly the word dysfunction but the level of production of thyroid hormones fluctuation which affects the mood of the person. For example, not to do the required action. To say exactly not to be in the mood to do the things you have to do. May be you blame all this for the weather challenges or the state of your mind after you do what you didn't like to do and feel you should have done whatever the situation might be that it can be helpful for your loved ones. The mood swings or the state which you feel down as the weather is chilly.

Basically all the outside environment change has to be get accustomed with the inside body world, and in this role, your master gland, the pituitary which produces numerous hormones and stimulates to produce other glands the required level of hormones for instance, thyroid glands. This thyroxine hormones if in deficiency or extreme production affects the mood, reaction and blood pressure of the body. The serious depression is also the result of this facts which is true.

What basically you need to do?

First being aware of this fact is the first process of change since the change is only possible by your brain. I believe we can make up our brain in which the mind plays an important role for sure. After understanding that why your mood changes and what you can do for this. After information you know about the nature of your state, you can plant yourself a seed of change in your mind. Truly believe yourself that you can change your state of the mind and body. Remember to say Yes! to whatever opportunities came in that will change your position and the doings. It can be a simple phone call from your friend or loved one to move you out of your current state. Just do the first initial step with an enthusiasm,  Believe you can change, move forward!!!!

Friday Sept 12, 2014

The day of which the show must go on:

Normally, I don't get irritated myself because I'm not that category of  a person who gets angry unnaturally.  I don't pretend to be angry. I think the girls are more aware of being herself angry of or about anything or anyone with just pretension. I'm not that kind of guy.

I felt angry today. Why I would get angry? May be because I didn't get what I want. May be because I'm not able to be in my state of comfort, a state of my righteousness or may be I'm in a position where normally I don't go along with it so easily.

Blood pressure reading:

I have my blood pressure reading of normally 120/80. This is after I have been taking medication of hypertension which used to go around 140/100 and sometimes 150/100. Earlier state of mine made me one day in a state of dizziness so that I need to take medicine any how. This made me to go to the Doctor for consultation. This wasn't today the Friday Sept 12, 2014, but about some months ago. The state of mine now is even better than before medication. I must say that the medication has really changed my living to before and even more active than before.

What could be the process of relief once you got angry?

To my knowledge when a person gets angry, he doesn't see anything. He can't see the pros and cons. He can't decide what can be right to him/her at that moment because most of the time if he decides something in his state of anger, the decision seldom is right to him. He/she has to regret most of his/her decision made at the time of anger. So, to quiet himself/herself what he/she should do is a big question to everyone.

Take a glass of cool water if possible. A cool water may not be available at that time. What you should do? Keep mum for few minutes and observe your thoughts going and coming. This is only possible when you get angry and you become alone at that time. So, move out of the place is the necessity since the environment really makes a difference. You might be thinking of cause of anger or the person whom  you got angry with through mind repeatedly. So, you need to silence your mind by saying to yourself --- That's nothing. That's nothing, That's nothing. If this makes you silent your mind then it is your ego that has been hurting.

The possibility of getting angry again when you see the person or heard about the person whom you had become angry, So, don't get into the process of triggering again. Be silent or ignore it to let go of the encounter of the situation again. May be the other person whom you got angry has already forgotten about the incident in his mind. It is just your way of responding makes a difference in the situation. If a tigger comes again, then identify it quickly and do the appropriate to nullify it.

You have to make commitment that you will not get angry again in your life ever. "If it happens, I will see to make it over."

Friday : the show must go on

It's always the last day of a week. We usually burden off work after days of work of a week. I want to go out with friends to eat out or roam about which is quite unnatural after marriage. When we are planning to go out sometimes, the moment when the obstacle came in. This really makes me angry. But the show must go on. Yes, the show is going on and is still on.

Today it's Friday Sept 12, 6.04 pm 2014

Our Baby on 19th weeks past Ultrasound

Ultrasound:

Our Baby is now 19th weeks past and entering into days of becoming 20th weeks. We went through Ultrasound this morning. All fine. God bless us. Amen.

Baby's heart pumping normal. Sound can be heard clearly. Our baby is floating into adequate amniotic fluid inside his mother worm. I can see his strong legs build inside. His head, eyes lobes, a lobe of his nose, the ribs of his chest, and hands and strips of his fingers are clearly visible.

weight:

Weight of the baby now around 295 gms. Physically too, his mother weight increased around 3 kg since then. Doctor said it is ok. The weight shouldn't decreased now, and keep increasing. She have given some food supplements of protein as my wife doesn't like meats to eat.

An injection of Tinatinus:

It was given in the morning before we left the hospital. In the afternoon, my wife complained of  pain in the arm where it was given. The pain seems like becoming a kind of fever. I called the doctor and she said to put some ice on the pain area  and if fever comes, take a cetamol. She is still now in her school with children. May be we will see when she arrives home in the evening.

Foods: 

She likes to eat bananas. She thinks it was a boy because she had eaten 6 bananas at the same time ha ha. Really, it can be. ha ha.

Baby's due date: Jan 26th 2015.

Tej -el festival de las mujeres!!

"Tej" 

Que alivio! para todas mujeres  hindus porque hay llegado el dia religioso "Tej." Es el dia donde las mujeres quedan y bailan sin comer nada. Sin comer y beber es un ritual.

Hay las canciones de "Tej" muy typical en que les bailan y relajan todas sus sufrimentos del ano. Las mujeres van a los templos de dios "Shiva" y lo adoran por sus maridos como el. Para las mujures casadas, ellos oran por sus maridos larga vida, saluda y prosperidad. Encendieron " Diyos" ( las luces ) tambien. Ellos llevan sarees y kurtas rojas. Antes el dia, ellos coman las comidas deliciosas se llaman " darr " hasta al medianoche.

"Tej" es el dia muy especial para las mujeres manifestar sus deseos de hombres o maridos.

Bailando para relajan sus sufrimentos

orando por su marido

                  Feliz dia de "Tej" para todas mujeres de Hindus.

First impression is the last impression - Not always!

Impression you make at first  not always is the last impression.

Such a dynamic world of human mind! - how human thinks is merely the information access and information availability in this highway of dynamic world of human mind. I used to read and know about the fact that impression you make at first is the last impression it lasts, but This seems not true.

Mind is so active and keep checking every times when encounters! Mind checks for the impression stored in your memory with the present events, and really replace the past stored but keep trace of your past action of memory stored. How does the mind do this? May be some of you who knows how computer memory works might tally with this. Let me know by commenting below which is always welcome to do so.

Impression, how really works in human mind? A person who looks shy and introvert at day one, if changed himself showing up different in the next day then the one who supposed to judge a person for performance and behaviour could really appreciate this changing behaviour of that person? I'm sure he will get the two different information to decide of which is more predominant. That won't be again the last information he would take it for decision as he needs more information.

Do you think a Heart can think too?Does it really matter to the impression we get from the person we met?

I used to read at my school that Heart is composed of cardiac muscles which are involuntary muscles,and are being controlled by para sympathetic nervous system of human brain. And, now these days, I read and view more about Heart being possessed with memory cells and a Heart can really thinks too!!! And now we are in the age of shift from thinking by mind to thinking by heart - You believe or not!!! love at first sight! I think this is about thinking by his heart. Mind really can't make it happen which has brain with its two sides - duality being present.

Mind signifies duality - right or left, imagination or logic, yin or yang, while Heart being Oneness - Wholeness.

From duality to Oneness. God is one. We are all one. Global consciousness impact the world.

While Heart can think too which is how life going to be then impression one can make adds the different dimension to this process. Last impression could be how the heart will think it and decide.

Soul being a just another entity different from our Mind and Heart.  Do you believe of Soul mate found stories of love? and the experience of previous life remembered?

Whatsoever, Human soul have some contribution in making impression to other one who might have his previous life history of karmic account. For more about karma and journey of a soul read here SOUL

Body which is we got in this three dimensional world of nature, really makes impact on the process of impression who we feel that they make us. It can be another part of the story of natural selection,existence and continuity. 

Saturday ! A day for recreation!

Here I am on this Saturday to write again for recreation!

"Recreation" I suppose is a word that I am looking for in my Life. Whether I live in any circumstances, a final term to recreate my life again seems a necessity. A necessity? Yes! May be thinking for future with a wise look to fuel my life with a propeller. I don't have an idea to make this Saturday - A day for recreation, but merely writing my memoir again.

Looking at a distance, my vision wanders really into deep speculation of what might I have done although I didn't do it then, do I regret it now?  I asked one of my friend the same question of his life and he denied to regret never as the past has gone - he will try to revive in future. Future is never the present until we make dream right now. Make this possible in the present! What has restrained me to side back what I want to do?

Health!! Fear!!! and at one corner some financial issue also.  I wouldn't set back my wants to sabotage if I didn't have these issues at the time of leaping into new challenges.

I have to look deep into me my fears that I have hidden down within myself. Fear of stirring of family environment into chaos - breakage of relationships that are now in comfort zones. Life is beginning to change really. Codependency in relationship - how to make it right for both of involved ones into secure and progressive right beings? Dissatisfaction of loved ones, competition with the siblings, fear of getting into trauma. Well I might exaggerating now.

Fun in life -Now, is that what I am looking for or togetherness of friends in which I want to be a part of it.

At this point of my life, gathering is rare though occasionally with someone I have a regularity from the long period of time. Few but enlightening! Well, I might be searching for yet again deep insight into the togetherness of friends - I want to a part of a function where we together play our stage of life. That's where synergy in life to create momentum. No wonders at this point of my life to invite all to take parts -here again the fear that I may feel - please don't come alive! What's the secret? You may ask - but yes! it's health and relationship, and family ( mom, and wife, and new coming baby ). Why I am so fearful!! I have to change my afraidness into good energy of self sufficiency and self dependency. Co-creation of this thought might help. No wonders how I may manage my health.  Fun without Health - aaggghhhh!!

A regular exercise is what I have to put on stress myself applying it into my life at this point of my life. Healthy diets are also on priorities - I have to see what I might interest on eating healthwise.

Cutting out expenses on eating junk foods. Cleansing of my body toxins  by herbals if possible - plenty of drinking water. Less salts and sugars. Lemon water to put it on the list of regularity whenever possible. Healthy thoughts and mind, and soul..I am a peaceful soul.  --- Yes, Meditation.

What does experience teach us?

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TRYING TO GET BACK ON TRACK OF MY LIFE.

Track of life:

Trying to get back on track of life -Yes, you would lost your track of life if you continue to loose your mind on surroundings of your daily activities. Well those daily activities I suppose you need them to survive and then your growth gets sabotaged. Well, you can also change the way you look to these situation as focusing on other things rather than you are continuing to do. It's closing one door and opening a new one. This new one could be your past thing that you have withhold for a long years. May be it is just you haven't got your focus in that you feel it is important.

Yes, it is the priorities that you are making and once you get into one of your priorities right now, make sure you get back to your previous one to continue doing what you want to achieve. Sometimes , it is where your mind is. Where your mind wanders when nothing you feel doing or you finishes your one task and now you have to get back to other which is equally important after urgency then.

In life, we have to do many things. How we take it as far as work is concerned. Life work - this is what I want to say.

Life work:

I have categorized this into subheading as Life work is something you should do that you are born to do. You may do something different that your life work and go on with life struggle which could also be your life work - may be not your primary life work. Why are you born in this world? Why you are here? What is your purpose of yours to be in this world?

There are certain things that you need to perform whether you like it or not but life work, we - everyone should identify and understand what we have to do in this life to perform in order to bring your soul into destiny.

Destiny: Destiny is where all soul have.  It is  influenced by the thoughts of your parents while you are infants and growing. Just a thought which have every ingredients to change and influence the destiny of a soul.

We all are governed with the soul work - is life work. A Soul may have many different lives which "Gita" explained.

How can we get back on track of life work after lost in the jungle of day to day activities which can be urgent to us now and will make us tired and unfruitful leading nowhere but even more circling of desires and wear and tear of our lives circumstances.

Some can get back on track and other will lost in the jungle: the others might not know what life work is his and born to do.

My life on thirties which seems to the end after one year or so. Some life achievements, and the others to do lists - desires and emotional set backs, feel of a war with your relatives and brothers - a sense of rights to be achieved for your child and wife - a pure responsibility, a surge of flow of desires and intentions to strengthen the edge of it and stand tall in the crowd of chaos where others intention trying to mark its way.

A row of my track of my life where your all intentions and achievements lie - I need to focus on that bringing it to the core of the activities which can nourish it and expand as I focus it through.

Shri guru deva dutta